These floods of you are unforgiving
Pushing passed me spilling through the banks
And I fall
Faster than light and faster than time
That’s how memory works
At least in the dark where I’m searching for meaning
When I’m just searching for something
I want out
Out of every awkward day
Out of every tongue tied loss
I want out
Out of the burdening night sweats
Out of the rising seas of blood
Lost in you like Saturday nights
Searching the streets with bedroom eyes
Just dying to be saved
Run on girl, run on
my friends tell me that i mumble in my sleep and twitch and shake. they tell me i hadn’t done that until you left.
i don’t sleep much anymore. i see your face in the dark and hear you in every song i listen to, but in the silence i can almost hear your voice.
4 am. every night, i wake up and half expect you to be sleeping next to me, but you’re not. you’re across town in your bed sleeping peacefully.
a boy took me home from school yesterday. while my mom was at work he kissed me hard and held me when i fell asleep. but you’ve went and ruined every person for me because they’re not you. i’m going to hurt this boy and it’s your fault.